In Sickness.

And in the middle of my chaos, there was you. I like to believe that I am really good at living the phrase "fake it ‘till you make it". I am a teacher and I stand in front of a classroom full of stinky kids every day and I smile. I smile when I'm mad.… Continue reading In Sickness.

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Dads Save Lives.

"Dad, did I ever tell you you're my hero?" https://youtu.be/_LSJO8rELaw Father's Day 2018! A few years ago our family took a trip to Oregon. One of the things that we enjoyed doing together was hiking. The Northwest is one of the best places to hike. It’s beautiful. As a mother I was pretty terrified the… Continue reading Dads Save Lives.

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Little Boxes

"I don't need to write that down. I'll Remember it."-Everyone Aaron was a planner. I would find hand written lists on his office desk with little boxes that he drew next to each task. I always thought it was funny that he would draw a little box but he told me that he felt great… Continue reading Little Boxes

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When All You Have is a Hammer…

Appreciate the little things, for one day you may look back and find they were the big things.Robert Brault I don’t really need this door, I thought. The kids often play the computer in this room and it would make sense for the door to simply not exist to allow for proper parental supervision. Later,… Continue reading When All You Have is a Hammer…

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A Widows Faith

For thou art my lamp, O Lord: and the Lord will lighten my darkness.2 Samuel 22:29 "Guiding Light" By Annie Nader Have you ever woken up in the morning and your eyes hurt. You immediately think, "Ugh, I feel like I got no sleep", even though you went to bed at a reasonable time the… Continue reading A Widows Faith

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Painting the town BLUE

Sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for, but then I remember your face and I'm ready for War! Shortly after Aaron died, I had a conversation with my oldest child Parker, one of many that I won't forget. He had just returned to school after staying home for several days and we were… Continue reading Painting the town BLUE

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I’m sorry I couldn’t save you.

I often think back to the day that we found out that Aaron had Cancer. Saturday February 3rd, 2018 the day we lost our future. I had picked up Aaron the night before from the airport. He was returning from a business trip in Las Vegas and it had only been 2 weeks since I… Continue reading I’m sorry I couldn’t save you.